Trust

The Lord really knows what he is doing. He sees the ENTIRE picture while we each see the small picture. Its hard at times to remember to see past that, but the reward is so worth the wait.

 I know that when you continually put God first, things will fall into their proper place. That may also mean that some things fall out of your life and other things fall into your life that you were not expecting. Letting the Lord lead my life has removed a burden that I didn't know I even had. It is a wonderful feeling.

We don't know how long we will live, but I do know without a doubt that the Lord will not forget me in my daily struggles. He leads me through the dark times as well as the good times. Sometimes we need to hit rock bottom for us to realize that Heavenly Father and Jesus Christ are always with us.

 I know this to be true. The more I actually live the gospel principles, the happier I am. The little things really do count.

Remember who you are. We are beloved sons and daughters of a LIVING God. He knows each of us personally.

With God in our life, all things are possible. We truly can be all things when God is with us.

There are times in life when it feels like we are not getting answers from God. I had a good friend tell me that is could be because "God trusts you enough to make the right decision" We would not be a righteous people if the Lord had to tell us what to do in every single aspect of our life. Sometimes it feels like it would be easier to have the Lord say this is what you need to do exactly, but how would we learn? How would we grow closer to God if He told us EVERYTHING we needed to do on a daily basis? How would we trust God more by being told what to do? A couple years ago I was trying to decide if I was going to stay at one college or transfer back to the one I had left. I got a priesthood blessing, and in that blessing the Lord told me that I would make the right decision. I wasn't told which of the college's I was suppose to be at, which would have been nice, but I learned to trust my Heavenly Father because He trusted me enough to make the right decision. I made my decision to stay at the college I was at. It was the right decision to make. Then about 9 months later, my parents told me I needed to quit college and just work. I owned them a tiny bit of money and having a part time job wasn't really paying my bills and I couldn't save any money for the future. I really struggled even more with this decision because I absolutely LOVE to learn. My grades may not be the best, but I love to learn. I met with my bishop for a totally unrelated topic and he asked me how I was doing and I told him my problem and there is no doubt in my mind that he was inspired of God. To paraphase what my bishop told me he said, that getting all the education you can, doesn't necessarily mean graduating and getting a diploma, which is how I looked at President Hinckley's council because I love to learn. I dont know exactly what my bishop said, but the way he said it let me know that it was the Lord who was telling my parents to tell me to quit school. Its been almost two years since that time and in that time, I have tried to go back a couple of different times, and once I signed up for classes something ALWAYS came up that interfered with me going back to school. I decided to stop trying to go back and have decided to wait for the  Lord to tell me if I am suppose to go back. I trust the Lord to give me sufficient time to get all the paperwork done for school if I am suppose to go back.
Ever since I was baptized at age 10, my goals in life were to, graduate high school, go to college right after high school, attend college until i was 21 then go on a mission, come back and finish college if i didnt before a mission. If i got married before 21 I could forego the mission and finish college as soon as i could after getting married. This is how it actually went, I graduated high school, took me a year after that until I went to college, flunked out of that college, went to another college, was going to go back to the first college, but ended up staying at the second one instead, two semesters later I quit college. During this time I also started to take mission preparation a couple of different times and something ALWAYS came up to prevent me from going and so I know right now isn't the time for me to go on a mission. I've watched my friends leave on their mission and come back. All my cousins are younger then me on my dad's side (my mom's side isn't members) and  my very first cousin just entered the MTC (missionary training center) a couple days ago for his mission. I dont know if or when I will have the opportunity to go on a mission but I will continue to write my cousins as they go out and support them, because I know how important missionary work is because of the joy that is in my life because of the missionaries that taught me. I haven't had the opportunity of marriage, but I know it will come in the Lord's time. Some days are worse then others because I want things right now and the Lord knows what will be better for me to wait longer for. I never thought I'd be living at home at my age either. My goals in life are vastly different than what the Lord knows is best for me. Its like the says "good, better, best, never let it rest, until your good is better, and your better is best". While I wait until my time aligns with my Heavenly Fathers time I will do my best to make my struggles to become strengths. Because money has been a bit tight the past few years, I have learned to budget my money and to use it wisely. I know money is one of the many causes of problems in marriage. If I learn now to be budget, life will be a bit easier once I get married.
I am not sure why I shared all of this. I hope it helps someone out there who come across my blog. I am not really  this open about my life and many of my friends dont know this about me because i haven't felt the need to share it until now. If you want or need to talk about something just leave a comment or email me. thanks :)